This is what my coach recommended when running down hills.
Stride out.
I am nearing the bottom
My feet are weary, now that the longer legs of the journey are past
There are a lot of things that don't add up
just yet.
I am hanging in the air between strides
searching for whatever soil will support me
Seesawing over my soles
This rolling back of gravity is what I can count on
Keeps me on the ground
These upstarting hooves want to fly
I only learned how to stride with the wind.
To keep pace with a ghost
To run trials with a dirt devil
This is a competition of self
Of kicking legs outward
and seeing how long it takes
to fall.
Wednesday, August 12
Friday, July 24
Replaceable
Remiss.
This summer has been an experience so far. I am unsure of how it is looking yet. I'm taking 12 credits right now.... And I just realized how weary I am. Sometimes I feel like my body has stiffened into a giant whetstone and every fiber of hair on my skin is a short fuse.
I dont mean to be so volatile. Its not something I am proud of. But if backed into a corner, I think you would turn your body into a wall as well. I dont know where I am moving anymore. This was supposed to be a journey but Im reverting back to my calligraphy of low points. The valleys are the only points on this map you need to see. Remiss.
I still have a lot to learn. Lately I have been letting my old self get the better of me. I think. I think I wish I knew myself better. I wish I could just exist for myself.
This summer has been an experience so far. I am unsure of how it is looking yet. I'm taking 12 credits right now.... And I just realized how weary I am. Sometimes I feel like my body has stiffened into a giant whetstone and every fiber of hair on my skin is a short fuse.
I dont mean to be so volatile. Its not something I am proud of. But if backed into a corner, I think you would turn your body into a wall as well. I dont know where I am moving anymore. This was supposed to be a journey but Im reverting back to my calligraphy of low points. The valleys are the only points on this map you need to see. Remiss.
I still have a lot to learn. Lately I have been letting my old self get the better of me. I think. I think I wish I knew myself better. I wish I could just exist for myself.
Thursday, May 7
Sprint the Ocean, Sail the Land
The flags of my latest coordinates would follow a single pulse spike, or a cycle from a music conductor.
Your choice.
4,739 miles outside of myself I found something.
I cant even begin to count the inventory of gifts I took away. Call it dowry for the day and minute marriages. An hiding tatoo that lingers if you are watching the wavelengths. Eyes flickering, tongues singing. I cannot catalogue the changes I have internalized. Even the wayward boomerangs are harping towards home.
Make like a snake if you want to know what I mean.
Go anywhere and leave your skin behind.
Be not solid.
Be not vision.
Be open...
And try not to shake the world such a violent accident when you find it cradled in your finger tips.
Your choice.
4,739 miles outside of myself I found something.
I cant even begin to count the inventory of gifts I took away. Call it dowry for the day and minute marriages. An hiding tatoo that lingers if you are watching the wavelengths. Eyes flickering, tongues singing. I cannot catalogue the changes I have internalized. Even the wayward boomerangs are harping towards home.
Make like a snake if you want to know what I mean.
Go anywhere and leave your skin behind.
Be not solid.
Be not vision.
Be open...
And try not to shake the world such a violent accident when you find it cradled in your finger tips.
Monday, April 6
13North/144East
There is a Bay in Guahan that holds the island in its womb.
wears the freedom of her people like a dream three days later
slow dancing across her belly and I am unsure where to put my hands
I am not Guam.
But I got to visit.
Big ups to Melvin, Kie, Nai, the whole Sinanganta poetry movement, and everyone who made us feel welcome. It was an honor to perform for anyone who caught any of the assemblys, or the show itself. Im glad so many people are supporting the arts in their hometown.
First Wave is happening and I couldnt be happier. I actually got the confirmation call when I was sitting in on Mels classes. So stoked. Back home now, trying to get everything done for the west coast trip. Hawaii Slam had Grand Slam Finals this past thursday, it was such a trip, I qualified for the NPS team, but since I'm going to be in Madison gave my slot away. The slam was amazing, everyone killed it, and it was just a great night. Anis Mojgani featured. It was wild to hear him live.
Anyways....
Go and give someone a hug.
wears the freedom of her people like a dream three days later
slow dancing across her belly and I am unsure where to put my hands
I am not Guam.
But I got to visit.
Big ups to Melvin, Kie, Nai, the whole Sinanganta poetry movement, and everyone who made us feel welcome. It was an honor to perform for anyone who caught any of the assemblys, or the show itself. Im glad so many people are supporting the arts in their hometown.
First Wave is happening and I couldnt be happier. I actually got the confirmation call when I was sitting in on Mels classes. So stoked. Back home now, trying to get everything done for the west coast trip. Hawaii Slam had Grand Slam Finals this past thursday, it was such a trip, I qualified for the NPS team, but since I'm going to be in Madison gave my slot away. The slam was amazing, everyone killed it, and it was just a great night. Anis Mojgani featured. It was wild to hear him live.
Anyways....
Go and give someone a hug.
Tuesday, March 3
Day One
I am not sure where everything is going lately.
Uneasy is someone I am uneasy knowing so well.
Waiting was never my strong suit. But thats all Ive been tasting lately. Empty air and the countless seconds that have been spent waiting.
I think the air in my atmosphere is past its expiration date. Happy March everyone. Time isnt getting tired I suppose.
Lately I have been feeling my age more. Its a few months worn in, but still not comfortable. And I know its laughable to feel old at 20, but fuck you critics. I can feel however I want. 20 is so much farther than 19. Ehh. But me and birthdays have numerous issues.
I am excited for the work happening with YouthSpeaks Hawaii. Some of the kids I have been working with have so much potential. Its great.
San Francisco will see me next month. Lack of responses means short trip. But I am extremely excited.
Jordan comes home one week from now. I wonder how best friends change in two years while serving a mission for church.
"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act, but a habit."
-- Aristotle
A quote I firmly believe and I am trying to keep this in the forefront of my mind every day.
I need to try harder.
Uneasy is someone I am uneasy knowing so well.
Waiting was never my strong suit. But thats all Ive been tasting lately. Empty air and the countless seconds that have been spent waiting.
I think the air in my atmosphere is past its expiration date. Happy March everyone. Time isnt getting tired I suppose.
Lately I have been feeling my age more. Its a few months worn in, but still not comfortable. And I know its laughable to feel old at 20, but fuck you critics. I can feel however I want. 20 is so much farther than 19. Ehh. But me and birthdays have numerous issues.
I am excited for the work happening with YouthSpeaks Hawaii. Some of the kids I have been working with have so much potential. Its great.
San Francisco will see me next month. Lack of responses means short trip. But I am extremely excited.
Jordan comes home one week from now. I wonder how best friends change in two years while serving a mission for church.
"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence, therefore, is not an act, but a habit."
-- Aristotle
A quote I firmly believe and I am trying to keep this in the forefront of my mind every day.
I need to try harder.
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